The Ups, The Downs, The Inbetweens

by Ponder

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The debut EP from acoustic Pop-Punk act Ponder

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released June 21, 2016

Music and Lyrics written by Joseph Barnum
Except 'Old Motives' cowritten by Joseph Barnum and Lane Senter
Co-Produced by Joseph Barnum and Mike Casselman
Engineered, Mixed, and Mastered by Mike Casselman at Castle Moonlight Studios in Nashville, TN

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Ponder Murfreesboro, Tennessee

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Track Name: Old Motives
Old motives keep me awake at night
Looking past the fog to see a dying light
And it just fades away
Always felt so cold around you
I guess I didn't fit the plans that you drew
Up for your life where did I fit in

And now I'm trying, trying to get by
To get by but I'm wasting my time
Things could be worse and I know that it gets rough
I gave you my all but I guess that's not enough
(Da da da da ddda da da)x3

Under loves heavy burden oh how I sink
When you were talking did you ever stop to think
That I had a say in this
I'm happy in my ignorance
I'm angry but in my defense
You screwed me over so now IM PISSED!

And now I'm trying, trying to get by
To get by but I'm wasting my time
Things could be worse and I know that it gets rough
I gave you my all but I guess that's not enough
(Da da da ddda da da da)x3

What would you do and what would you say
To make all of this go to make this erase
And now that you left me in the fucking cold
I can recall every lie you told

And now I'm trying, trying to get by
To get by but I'm wasting my time
Things could be worse and I know that it gets rough
I gave you my all but I guess that's not enough
Track Name: Recovery
My back up against these
four walls that cave and collapse on me
The airs thin, it's cold here
to the point where I can barely breathe

Rehabilitation it's wearing
me thin beyond repair
I can't stand these cold sweats
and thoughts following
everywhere I go, everywhere I see
It's hurting you while it's killing me
When can I step off, when can I get clean
and how do I was off the dirt you have seen

Recovery
if only someone would recover me
This skin is now stained
and there's no hiding my pain

The pressure, the pleasure
from emptying a bottle
The lying, denying
that drives my fears full throttle
Seeing this is killing me
I don't know what to believe
Recovery you're a damn good fake

Recovery
if only someone would recover me
This skin is now stained
and there's no hiding my pain

(Recovery) I'm trying but dying to see the light of day
(Recovery) The taking, the faking, of my own broken way
(Recovery) The mistakes, that I made, I'll cope but they won't fade
(Recovery) And the mirror gets clearer as I say it to my face
Recovery...
Track Name: March, You Damn Near Killed Me...
Oh how I wish
the world loved me
as much as I hated myself
And I'm stuck in this mess
of remorse and regret
I'm in a living hell
Why can't somebody care
for me
like I've cared for the them
I feel so betrayed
like a grade a fuck up
and it kills me every day

I'm deep in water with weights on my feet
The same ones that strengthened, but I can't lift me
Off of rock bottom to continue through
So now I'm drowning, I can't cut loose

I feel pain, I feel used
I still feel broken, so how 'bout a truce
Between my demons and the angel inside
So maybe I can keep an inch of my pride
I guess I'm human after all
I'm human after all

My silver lining
it's fading in my
dark shadows I've left behind
I wear this fake smile
like a shameful badge
when I'm anything but fine
The structure I've built
over these 16 years
is crumbling at my feet
And when you're 16
the thing you know best
shouldn't be death and deceit

I feel pain, I feel used
I still feel broken, so how 'bout a truce
Between my demons and the angel inside
So maybe I can keep an inch of my pride
I guess I'm human after all
I'm human after all

I pushed this so deep
and packed the bottle
I keep my emotions in
Now my head is torn
into a thousand fucked pieces
that led me to a binge
Of hating myself and driving my head
Through a wall, hoping for some relief
And now all I see is dark blood red
Because I broke the pact I swore to keep

I feel pain, I feel used
I still feel broken, so how 'bout a truce
Between my demons and the angel inside
So maybe I can keep an inch of my pride
I guess I'm human after all
I'm human after all

March you damn near killed me (x4)